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Subject:i hate the distance
Time:09:37 pm
Current Mood:sadsad
sometimes late at night when noone is around i get so lonely and i just want to be somewhere else with someone else
i love to be alone i actually like being alone alot of the time but i find more and more that when i am alone i think about you so much and i miss you so much
i wish u were here tonight to make love with me and to fall asleep in ur arms and get to wake up and still have u in my bed

I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
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Time:05:34 pm
ugh i just got back from my first day at work
people in paradise valley are such bitches....even though im from there but i dont act like it

it wasnt that bad though it was alot easier than any of the other jobs i have had which is nice except im scheduled to work everyday next week except thursday and friday....at least we close at 5 so i get out early

the people there are cool except for the creepy mexicans that work there and this one weird guy who they told me already has a crush on me within working for 5mins....gross

i miss you eric and im sorry about ur phone....dont worry everything will be ok with ur suger momma around!!

i think im gonna go take a nap and get ready for a crazy night tonight....its either gonna be a triple kegger or a pimp and hoe party

love you
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Time:05:55 am
its 6am and im getting up to go to the src to work out....already have talked to eric twice isnt that gross its not even 6am and we have talked twice....if only u knew what we talked about ;).

ahhh my math test is today and i dont want to take it

i feel like i cant do anything right for anyone. noone is ever happy enough its like when i get a b in a class its like well why didnt u get an a or if i got a job well you arent working enough hours and u dont get paid enough i cant win

im sorry that you dont understand that sometimes people may promise things with all the intention of carying through with it especially with a certain past history of breaking promises, but if you cant even give me five seconds to explain myslef before you blow up than you really dont even care why that promise was broken and if its such a huge deal that someone promises something than why cant u give them the same amount of time to explain what happend, maybe you would save yourself from being so angry and instead could be having phone sex

i love you with all my heart and i loved our convos this morning but if you cant even listen to me but instead just shut me out it makes me feel worthless and that im not worth it to you. I try with you even if you dont see it i really do, i dont ever want to purposly make u mad or purposly break a promise with you normally its just that i didnt put my self into your shoes and iv started doing that and ithink i have done alot better and i feel better about myslef being honest even if u dont believe it or if its only been 2 days

i cant wait to come up and see you and maybe for once you can be proud that im doing decent in school i have a job and im not smoking as much.....you helped me turn things around and i will be forever greatful for that
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Subject:why do i loose everything
Time:03:38 pm
went home again today to lay by the pool topless
i really hope my neighbors cant see into the yard cause that could be akward

i just got a call from honey glazed ham company which is like paradise bakery but a little differnet and i got hired there so i finally am employed its been since i think december the last time i had a job
i hope i get paid a decent amout of money i start saturday at 11am

i need to study for my math test tomorrow im a little scared that im not gonna do good but i understand this section alot better than the first so wish me luck

im gonna go search my room for my calculator because i cant do math without it

how gay im doing math on a thursday night in the middle of the summer....fuckin shitty

only 15 more days till i get to see someone special named eric
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Subject:da da da da
Time:05:45 pm
Current Mood:draineddrained
just got back from my house
i have to watch it for my parents while they are away
i love being home when no one else is around and being able to lay out in the sun and play with tucker all day
there is only one thing that would have made it better and that is of course if eric was playing with me too

i need to start studying for my math test....ewww i hate math and i think it has grown to hate me as well

iv been trying to workout and eat healthier so i can loose some weight cause i have a weight problem ok but iv been killing myslef and im so hungry all the time but i know that once i loose like 20 pounds that you will stay around

im nervous almost 15 days...its so scary knowing people have like an image of what im going to be like or look like and im so scared that im not gonna be good enough or be as good as people had hoped
maybe u are too good for me

anyways im gonna go study and than hit up the src to swim some laps with laura
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Subject:in love
Time:07:22 pm
iv been going to summer school now for like 2 weeks or so and it sucks but iv never tried this hard ever to do well in school and its so hard....especially with all the effort and my results not coming back as well as i hopped

there are so many temptations surrounding me and its killing me slowly

im trying so hard to be good and i love it and all but sometimes i wish that i didnt have to study and that i could be having an awesome summer but its probably better this way cause otherwise i might be doing some crazy things

im so in love its great i love being in love in the summer i just wish that i got to spend it with you
i cant wait to go up and see u its gonna be so much fun and i cant wait for the drive...wink wink....and after not having sex for over a month its hard
i only have 17 days soon to be 16

im excited to come for your birthday too get ready for a good present.....i havent decided yet what it is but its gonna be good

i hope that you can come to tahoe too because it will be so nice to be with you without having to worry about school or work but just to be able to relax and have such a romantic and crazy time in tahoe.....u know how u said going to mass u would be able to show me another side of eric well if you come to tahoe i will get to show u another side of me and i really want to be able to just lay in the sad holding a beer and maybe a jizzoint and look at the stars...maybe going skinny dipping in the lake

things are good in my life right now and im really happy finally
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Subject:hehe
Time:08:35 pm
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Subject:i love shrek 2
Time:03:49 pm
Current Mood:optimisticoptimistic
So she said, "What's the problem, baby?"
What's the problem I don't know.
Well, maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it everytime
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this?
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if its love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no
Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love
We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally
I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally
Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her
Love ...I'm in love
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Time:02:57 pm
ahhhhh
summer school started and it blows
i hate getting up early and having to walk around asu in the summer and than sit through 2 hours of math with a teacher that i cant even understand

im not having a good day or good days latly
i wake up feeling like shit and i feel ok for most of the day but than towards the night i have this like peircing headaches that hurt so bad i could cry

the only thing that makes me feel any better is when i smoke
so i have come to a conclusion that i have a problem
i quit smoking on the weekdays and it sucks cause everyone comes over and smokes but i just have to watch and than hang out with all of them and listen to them and i dont get to be apart it sucks

im having some other issues but im not gonna go into it on here but its making me crazy

im sorry that i keep messing up and making u mad its like we cant get through a day with me doing something wrong
im sorry im gonna make it up to u and be a really good girlfriend and we are gonna be so happy together
i love you babe
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Time:02:39 pm
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